Friday, December 27, 2013

The Princess has arrived!

So 2 days after my last posting, I actually went into labour ward. I had an abrupt contractions slightly after midnight on 27 Nov 2013. It was painful, nothing that I ever experienced before and for a moment I was scared I gave birth at home! My dear husband was on night shift that day, so I called him umpteen times but no answer. Unfortunately it was his resting time and phone was on silent. When I finally got through to him, I was very sure he panicked!

So we reached TMC probably around 2am, changed and strap to their usual equipment. For a moment there was a spike in my contractions. Then 1-2hours later, somehow the contractions went off or totally mild. Weird.  A blessing in disguise too, I must add. Because my superhero Dr Fong decided to checked again on my placenta position. And it was still low. He didnt want to take the risk to send me home as I was already experiencing contractions thus it may endanger me and baby should the baby make her way too low and placenta bleeds. He ordered for an emergency caesarean (GA) and I felt totally down. Scared, nervous all sorts of feelings going through me. It was the 1st time for me and I really didn't know what to expect. Pushed into the cold white room (surgery room) at 130pm and I felt so lonely. Bless my gynae for being the best and giving me the assurance and the calm aura.  Everything happened so fast and I am done in less than 30mins.

Woke up groggy, with an unclear sight and felt totally drowsy. I only remembered asking for baby's condition the moment I woke up and then asked about my husband. Got the answer, back to sleep. Alhamdullilah, praises to Allah swt, we both came out fine. Dr Fong said I did great back in the operation room and I didnt bleed much. Stitches were nicely done by him. He's great and I'm thankful we stick with him throughout all 4 pregnancies.

So lets welcome our new addition to the family:

Eiliyah Zara which means "The beautiful one who will grow to love and find peace with God." Insyaallah.

Born at TMC on 27 Nov 2013 weighing 2.53kg and height of 46cm. A slight preemie at 36weeks but a real fighter and cili padi as mentioned by paed. The lucky girl who is so well loved by all her siblings.

Thursday, December 19, 2013

A decade has gone....

We still standing strong. Alhamdullilah. Not an easy 10 years but we made through it and happy as we could be. Blessed with 4 beautiful children and supportive family. Life's been great and I am totally bless to have him as my lifetime partner. An understanding man who never restricted me and gave me the freedom to make decisions for the family and the kids. Who trusted me with all he had and never doubted what I have done for everyone. The man who respected my space and freedom. To many more good years ahead of us. Insyaallah.

I love you, Muhamad Firuz. And thank you for the lovely gifts. :)

Monday, November 25, 2013

36 weeks and counting

And so my last checkup wasn't really a positive one. Baby's generally fine. Her heartbeat, her measurement all within range. She now weigh 2.68kg, can you imagine that?! What is really worrying me right now is the positioning of the placenta. It is still pretty much low, 2.5cm above cervix. We needed it to be at least 5cm above. Its just beside baby's head at the moment. Dr Fong advise me to wait for another week and we pray that it went up so that I can still have the chance to do normal delivery. We gonna stretch it as far as we can, and hoping that I don't get contractions by then.

Name has been settled. Lets called her baby EZ for now. This name pretty much hooked me in. It has a very deep impact on me, which I found it rather unusual. Everytime when I said it out, it gave me some kind of peaceful feeling. Like its meant for us. Insyaallah, this name will bring more peace, barakah and more positivities to her.

Sunday, November 10, 2013


3 more weeks to 36wks of pregnancy. At this moment, things doesn't looked too well. Whether I will still go through via a normal delivery for the 4th time, really depends 2-3 weeks later. As of now, placenta is still consider pretty low. I am seriously worried and scared at the thoughts of having to go through the c-section. First time ever, thus the stress. And the fact that all 3 previous births came out 2-3 weeks early, this 4th one have a very high chance to coming out even earlier. So chances of the placenta moving up in time seems 50-50. I pray hard that things turned out the way I prefer it to be. Insyaallah.

Some info of Placenta Previa: 

What is placenta previa?

If you have placenta previa, it means that your placenta is lying unusually low in your uterus, next to or covering your cervix. The placenta is the pancake-shaped organ – normally located near the top of the uterus – that supplies your baby with nutrients through the umbilical cord. If you're found to have placenta previa early in pregnancy, it's not usually considered a problem. But if the placenta is still close to the cervix later in pregnancy, it can cause bleeding, which can lead to other complications and may mean that you'll need to deliver early. If you have placenta previa when it's time to deliver your baby, you'll need to have a cesarean section.
If the placenta covers the cervix completely, it's called a complete or total previa. If it's right on the border of the cervix, it's called a marginal previa. (You may also hear the term "partial previa," which refers to a placenta that covers part of the cervical opening once the cervix starts to dilate.) If the edge of the placenta is within two centimeters of the cervix but not bordering it, it's called a low-lying placenta.
The location of your placenta will be checked during your mid-pregnancy ultrasound exam (usually done between 16 to 20 weeks) and again later if necessary.

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Being a MOM

If I am being asked, whats my biggest struggles? My immediate answer would be: Patience and learn to let loose wif my kids.

I am a tough mom. Sometimes I wonder who's being trained in army, me or Muhamad Firuz because he's the more chill and fun parent to be with. While I am the serious and very strict with my kids. Head of discipline as they called it. My firstborn Arian had it worst I feel. He got spank, punished with all sorts of punishment, shouted at, nagged at. Super tough to deal, with this one. And I hated myself for doing it but for some reasons, we just gotta be the evil one. Yet, when his father had an occasional father-son talk, he will said

"I love mummy, because she gave birth to me"
"Mummy is very cute, very funny"

Yet, without fail, he reminded me he loves me. I consoled myself, " I must be doing something good as his parent then"

Parenting is NEVER easy. Either you concealed that fact or live with it. My rants, my daily grumbles, my cries, at the end of the day, is only because I want the best for them. For them to be a better person in future. And as parent, we are always being judge for every single thing that our kids does. Nothing is ever right. Even parenting tips doesnt even work on some! Its all about trial and errors.. :) But I am pretty sure, despite the constant naggings, scoldings, it is such a fulfilling job to be a mom. Despite having to go through that many tough moments for many years down the road. :)

I love you, my 3 little rascals. The ones who gave me heart pains but also such a joy to be around. The ones who brought so much laughter, anger, love, sorrows, in this house. The ones who constantly turn up my vocal chords volume. Yet still appreciate that I am your mom. And you will never trade me for anyone else.

At the end of this, its gonna be worth it. God willing.


Friday, October 25, 2013


Oh dear, where have I been missing? I'm still here, surviving daily but too busy and at times lazy to post an update. Now almost 9mths later, here I am trying to keep this blog alive...hehe

What has happened so far during this 9mths?

1. I got pregnant!! And about to give birth say in about 5-6weeks from now.

2. We went to Dubai for this year family trip. And this time for 3 weeks!

3. Aniq is now 18mths old and soon will be a big brother to a baby sister. Yes! I am expecting a girl for the 4th one. My dear Sofea will have a playmate.

5. Arian will be in Primary 1 next year *yikes!* We got the school of choice. But such a nerve wrecking process!

6. My bestfriend Tini got married finally! Yey!

7. I got myself a helper after much consideration. Dealing with 4 is no joke especially if you have a toddler and baby together.

8. Life's been pretty good and blessed, Alhamdullilah.

9. Me and dearest hubby gonna celebrate our 10th year anniversary soon, insyaallah. Time flies but my heart still beats for him :)

10. Kids are growing well, happy despite the constant nagging from me. Aniq is slowly learning to talk. Arian is preparing himself for Primary 1. Sofea is still the "kpala angin" girl. Daddy's girl but soon will got to share the limelight..hehehe

Enjoy the pictures!

Friday, February 22, 2013

Aniq's 1st steps!

I am so happy to witness my baby walk! Prior to this, he has started taking baby steps but afraid to go more than 4 steps. BUT tonight, after we came back from fetching Arian from class, he was still wide awake and decided to show his new skill! So happy that he waited to showed it to us. So I planned with hubby to bring him to airport or any bigger space to practice his walking. Being a cheeky baby he is, he tends to get over excited and walk at faster pace. So I assume right. He will walk early just like Arian. At 10 months old. Congrats Aniq Rifqi! Mummy and Daddy looking forward to many more of your milestones baby.