Friday, February 22, 2013
Aniq's 1st steps!
I am so happy to witness my baby walk! Prior to this, he has started taking baby steps but afraid to go more than 4 steps. BUT tonight, after we came back from fetching Arian from class, he was still wide awake and decided to show his new skill! So happy that he waited to showed it to us. So I planned with hubby to bring him to airport or any bigger space to practice his walking. Being a cheeky baby he is, he tends to get over excited and walk at faster pace. So I assume right. He will walk early just like Arian. At 10 months old. Congrats Aniq Rifqi! Mummy and Daddy looking forward to many more of your milestones baby.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Story of a SAHM
Its funny how I chose to be a SAHM almost 2yrs now and yet I only look forward to the time when all 3 kids are soundly asleep. Do not get me wrong. I love being a mom. And I am thankful to be given the privilege and chance to quit my job to care for my kids. BUT I will not deny that being a mom and and a full time at it, has its challenges. BIG TIME. Our time are pretty much around the kids, without an adult conversation and basically little ME time. Except when they are sleeping. I slept late almost everyday (3am mostly), not because I want to, but rather because I have to. This is the only time where I feel that, the world is finally mine. Where I feel that, I am finally in peace and having my sanity back. These are the time where I can do whatever I want. Reading news, watching online movies, just anything without the need to scream, being interrupted and always in tasks.
Funny how I am a housewife, but always busy. Trust me, I do not even have to cook and yet I still think time is never enough. I somehow developed some kind of OCD and it gets worse after each birth. Every single day has its different challenges. Today will be more about Arian, my firstborn. Next day will be the story about Aniq, my youngest child. On most days, it will be about all 3 of them. I have this feeling that my neighbours regardless which level, have started to understand my routine. The screaming that takes place every morning when Eva had a hard time waking up (and shower too!) and be late for school every single day. The screaming at noon when Arian decided to take his own sweet time to get ready for school eventhough I am already pressing for time. School is less than 10mins drive from home. The afternoon exasperation when Aniq refused to let me out of his sight. Taking a possibly 5mins "pooping break" seems impossible without having him screaming for me. Even doing the daily "must do" house chores can be such a difficult task when I have to constantly keep him in check. He will either be making his way to the kitchen and rummaged through the drawer for some rubber bands. Or he will be making his way to go into the toilet. Or gleefully entered Arian's room to find some books to throw around or toys to bite. And basically create another mess for me, his beloved mummy, to clean after. Afternoon naps work wonders IF I snuggle beside him. He can sleep for 2hours straight else it will be a miserable 10-20mins shut eye. How to do work, you tell me?
So when kids are back from school, another drama unfold. Arian (one loud debater) squabble with Eva over a bicycle ride. Eva will come screaming (one drama queen) to complained that Arian pinch her. Aniq will cry out loud for putting him in a walker. I will scream and asked all to stop playing. They came in and watch tv and continue to squabble over the tv channel. ALL THESE WHILE IM TRYING TO PREPARE FOOD FOR THEM! Interesting aye? So you see, the grass isn't always greener being a SAHM. There are many factors that one have to faced along the way. BUT one thing for sure, it is a blessing to see each child growing up right in front of you and achieved what you painstakingly tried to teach them. I bonded with my children, funnily, through the daily scream fest and daily debates. It may seems "nonsense" to some but I like to see it that way. Putting the usual negative thinkings of some into a positive one for me. I am a strict mum. One who can be modernize to align with current society and yet conservative enough to put some barriers to them. I abide by right values. I hardly read to them daily now since the birth of my 3rd child. I do try occasionally when my mood are better on some days or when I am not mentally and emotionally exhausted by them. I am tired every single day, not by the housework but by the emotional and mental challenges by each of my children.
Coming to 2 years now since I last quit my job to be the discipline master to my children, I am glad I have achieved something albeit small to some:
- Arian and Eva will automatically put their milk bottles in the sink right after each feeding
- They will hang their towels each time after getting ready though at times they do forget.
- They can made up their own bed though Eva may need help from her brother most of the time.
- They understand that FUCK is a rude word that they can hear but not allowed to use it on anyone. Geez Arian can spell it too now.
- They constantly use and know when to say their Thank You. But have to work a bit more on their PLEASE.
- I can actually rely on Arian to take care of his 2 younger siblings, though he do get reprimanded for easily getting distracted especially when watching tv.
- Eva is doing pretty well with her phonics sounds. She will turned 4 in April.
- Arian able to do short reading at 4yrs. Now he started doing P1 work. Slowly but surely.
- Can get them to assist in housework like vacuuming and doing small tasks.
- Arian can fold his blanket. Not perfect but good enough for me that he tried.
- Arian have proven before that he can make his own milk.
These may not be achievements to some, but to me it meant big. For a mother who constantly loses her temper, impatient and ridiculously have high expectations at times, I am blessed that my children still loves me, for me. They will never agreed to having another mum (which I jokingly offered, haha) and despite our daily so called tiffs, they know I have their back. And how lucky I am despite all the down moments, me berserking, I can still hear them telling me " I love you mummy" every single day. Being a mom isn't all about bed of roses, definitely exhausting, stressful, depressed moments, blood and sweat to raise 1 child, what more 3?! How many more years to SAHM, you asked me?
GOD KNOWS! :)
Funny how I am a housewife, but always busy. Trust me, I do not even have to cook and yet I still think time is never enough. I somehow developed some kind of OCD and it gets worse after each birth. Every single day has its different challenges. Today will be more about Arian, my firstborn. Next day will be the story about Aniq, my youngest child. On most days, it will be about all 3 of them. I have this feeling that my neighbours regardless which level, have started to understand my routine. The screaming that takes place every morning when Eva had a hard time waking up (and shower too!) and be late for school every single day. The screaming at noon when Arian decided to take his own sweet time to get ready for school eventhough I am already pressing for time. School is less than 10mins drive from home. The afternoon exasperation when Aniq refused to let me out of his sight. Taking a possibly 5mins "pooping break" seems impossible without having him screaming for me. Even doing the daily "must do" house chores can be such a difficult task when I have to constantly keep him in check. He will either be making his way to the kitchen and rummaged through the drawer for some rubber bands. Or he will be making his way to go into the toilet. Or gleefully entered Arian's room to find some books to throw around or toys to bite. And basically create another mess for me, his beloved mummy, to clean after. Afternoon naps work wonders IF I snuggle beside him. He can sleep for 2hours straight else it will be a miserable 10-20mins shut eye. How to do work, you tell me?
So when kids are back from school, another drama unfold. Arian (one loud debater) squabble with Eva over a bicycle ride. Eva will come screaming (one drama queen) to complained that Arian pinch her. Aniq will cry out loud for putting him in a walker. I will scream and asked all to stop playing. They came in and watch tv and continue to squabble over the tv channel. ALL THESE WHILE IM TRYING TO PREPARE FOOD FOR THEM! Interesting aye? So you see, the grass isn't always greener being a SAHM. There are many factors that one have to faced along the way. BUT one thing for sure, it is a blessing to see each child growing up right in front of you and achieved what you painstakingly tried to teach them. I bonded with my children, funnily, through the daily scream fest and daily debates. It may seems "nonsense" to some but I like to see it that way. Putting the usual negative thinkings of some into a positive one for me. I am a strict mum. One who can be modernize to align with current society and yet conservative enough to put some barriers to them. I abide by right values. I hardly read to them daily now since the birth of my 3rd child. I do try occasionally when my mood are better on some days or when I am not mentally and emotionally exhausted by them. I am tired every single day, not by the housework but by the emotional and mental challenges by each of my children.
Coming to 2 years now since I last quit my job to be the discipline master to my children, I am glad I have achieved something albeit small to some:
- Arian and Eva will automatically put their milk bottles in the sink right after each feeding
- They will hang their towels each time after getting ready though at times they do forget.
- They can made up their own bed though Eva may need help from her brother most of the time.
- They understand that FUCK is a rude word that they can hear but not allowed to use it on anyone. Geez Arian can spell it too now.
- They constantly use and know when to say their Thank You. But have to work a bit more on their PLEASE.
- I can actually rely on Arian to take care of his 2 younger siblings, though he do get reprimanded for easily getting distracted especially when watching tv.
- Eva is doing pretty well with her phonics sounds. She will turned 4 in April.
- Arian able to do short reading at 4yrs. Now he started doing P1 work. Slowly but surely.
- Can get them to assist in housework like vacuuming and doing small tasks.
- Arian can fold his blanket. Not perfect but good enough for me that he tried.
- Arian have proven before that he can make his own milk.
These may not be achievements to some, but to me it meant big. For a mother who constantly loses her temper, impatient and ridiculously have high expectations at times, I am blessed that my children still loves me, for me. They will never agreed to having another mum (which I jokingly offered, haha) and despite our daily so called tiffs, they know I have their back. And how lucky I am despite all the down moments, me berserking, I can still hear them telling me " I love you mummy" every single day. Being a mom isn't all about bed of roses, definitely exhausting, stressful, depressed moments, blood and sweat to raise 1 child, what more 3?! How many more years to SAHM, you asked me?
GOD KNOWS! :)
Saturday, February 02, 2013
Happy 6th Arian!
On 2nd February, my firstborn Arian Danish turned 6! From a baby who always needed the extra attention medically, to a boy who is such a sweet talker. This is one boy who potentially can be a lawyer for his constant debates with me or anyone that matters and is good at putting one at their place. Literally. Amazing what a family boy he has become, turning down offer from us to celebrate it in school but rather have the celebration with family members and have fun with his cousins. Arian, the very social boy who can easily make friends with all ages. One who doesn't really feel the need to be "malu" and pretty much thick skinned like mummy. Arian, the boy who can really talk and talk and always finding something to get your attention. My nag, as what he said it, is cute.
He will embark in primary school life next year and mummy doesn't know whether to feel happy or sad. My only hope for you my son is that you grow up to be a fine boy, respected by people and bring pride to the family not only by paper achievements but more of your self discipline and attitude/inner self. Be the best you can be and remember to placed Allah swt always in your heart. Always put family first before others. Me and daddy will always support you and have your back. We are always proud of your achievements be it big or small. Mummy, Daddy, Sofea and Aniq love you so much Abang!
He will embark in primary school life next year and mummy doesn't know whether to feel happy or sad. My only hope for you my son is that you grow up to be a fine boy, respected by people and bring pride to the family not only by paper achievements but more of your self discipline and attitude/inner self. Be the best you can be and remember to placed Allah swt always in your heart. Always put family first before others. Me and daddy will always support you and have your back. We are always proud of your achievements be it big or small. Mummy, Daddy, Sofea and Aniq love you so much Abang!
Thursday, January 10, 2013
My Boo
The face I woke up to every single day. The smile that melts my heart. The laughter that drowned my sorrows. Aniq Rifqi, my 9th months old baby. Who is every so active and happy. Mummy loves you so much sweet heart. Below I put his video created by my sister. Aniq doing the gangnam style! Enjoy!
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Happy New Year!
2012 has been tough financially and dealing with my firstborn but alhamdullilah we got thru it. Bt i know 2013 will be much better. May the year strengthen friendships, family bond, good health to my loved ones, $ blessings to all. For me i wanna be a good muslimah a better wife and mum. Insyaallah. Amin. Happy 2013 to all! :)
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
9th and counting!
Alhamdullilah despite earlier challenges in our marriage, we survived up till this stage! I am blessed to have him in my life, my clown, my partner in crime, my listening ears and everything. I pray that Allah protect my marriage and only death do us apart. I love you, Muhamad Firuz. A year to a decade, so I hope for a happening celebration next yr!
Saturday, December 08, 2012
JLO! @Singapore
4 Dec: As if KL wasn't enough, some of us actually toy with the idea to attend the concert in Singapore too! I was contemplating but when a gf asked me along, I coudn't say NO! Asking for permission from hubby was quite a sweaty one..he as usual will put me in such agony before giving a yes. Arrangements for kids made and off we go! We reached The Meadow, Gardens By The Bay at about 7pm but Ms Superstar only started the concert at 9pm, just as I expected.
The difference between here and KL was, there the grass patch was covered! And save us a lot from the muddy horror. The VIP area was really far behind, eventhough stated elevated, it does look pathetic to me. Having to pay so much at $348, to see JLO from far and worse no big screens on the left and right of the stage. And we also conclude that KL fans more happening la! Me and Dee were kinda prepared to be casual in case it rain again, so we were in jeans and birkies! And again we were in ponchos! Oh what fate! When the sponsors area were not filled up full, they give way to concert goers like us to make our way in. Hurray! Much closer to the stage but unfortunately not at the T area. And unlucky too we have to stand behind this blardy tall caucasian guy. What luck! As my hp was being sickening as usual, I didnt get to take any videos nor pictures. So all pictures courtesy of my gf.
The difference between here and KL was, there the grass patch was covered! And save us a lot from the muddy horror. The VIP area was really far behind, eventhough stated elevated, it does look pathetic to me. Having to pay so much at $348, to see JLO from far and worse no big screens on the left and right of the stage. And we also conclude that KL fans more happening la! Me and Dee were kinda prepared to be casual in case it rain again, so we were in jeans and birkies! And again we were in ponchos! Oh what fate! When the sponsors area were not filled up full, they give way to concert goers like us to make our way in. Hurray! Much closer to the stage but unfortunately not at the T area. And unlucky too we have to stand behind this blardy tall caucasian guy. What luck! As my hp was being sickening as usual, I didnt get to take any videos nor pictures. So all pictures courtesy of my gf.
JLO went all out with her's and the dancers constumes in Singapore. And also sang an additional song. As usual it was great and I came back very much happier though with a aching legs and backache..hehehe
Now do enjoy my curent favourite from my all time idol.
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